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Anticipation of elation, joy
The buildup is tremendous
The moment comes
Afraid to get my hopes up
What unexpected wrinkle will happen last minute?
But no
All goes according to plan
Finally

And then
A vacuum
Not really sure what to think or feel
Congratulations feels weird
Grateful to have reached conclusion, sure
Closure, or at least partial
With a path to completion agreed to
The emotions are a mixed bag

Breath had been held
Anticipating the worst
Then exhale
Followed by a flood of emotions
Sympathy
Sorrow
Disappointment
Guilt
Relief
Emptiness
Directed at self
At the other

Look what you made me do
Wait
Thank GOD you made me do this
Look who I have become as a result!!

Bursting with gratitude
I am THIS now
And I freakin’ love me
I’m awesome
Flawed and all
Growing
Curious
Loving
Grateful
Owning my shit
Gentle, kind and firm
Unyielding when I need to be
A healthy boundary maker

I had to break down in order to build myself up properly
There were difficult moments, of course
Totally worth it

The promise was to be classy AF
I believe both of us did our best to uphold our respective ends of that bargain

Team Unger
5/6/00 – 9/24/20

As individuals may we both find that which we were unable to find together

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