I’m going to occasionally make this choice
How will you react?
Will you still love me when I act a fool?
When I succumb to peer pressure?
When I get a wild hair?
When I want to let loose?
Where is your line?
Of too much?
Of not strong enough? Principled enough?
I act carefree, but I’m just as scared as the next person
That you will reject me
That I will be too much
Too… I don’t even know
Tears are flowing
The insecurity is full-blown now
Will I not be enough for you?
Am I acting as if I am not attached to the outcomes, or is that real?
On the surface I have it going on, maybe
But underneath I’m just as scared as anyone
Scared to die alone
Scared to BE alone
Why am I crying?
This is real
I put on a brave face
But I’m just as scared as anyone
Please don’t reject me
Underneath it all, I’m a scared little girl
Please accept me as I am
Flaws and all